tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-87993330395714059852024-03-05T08:39:12.845-05:00Just Being Who I AmA Stay At Home Mom with polymyositis muscle disease just trying to be a good mom, getting thrue the treatment, enjoy life and stop being afraid of living!*Tracy*http://www.blogger.com/profile/01237935098448989031noreply@blogger.comBlogger139125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8799333039571405985.post-3321979181809344552010-09-10T01:25:00.003-04:002010-09-10T01:41:44.971-04:00im healingWell im alive and coping!<br />i had gallbladder surgery a little over a week ago and hope no more surgerys in my near future! i have 5 incisions and they are healing nicley except for the one in my belly button wich was infected but looking better now, still hurts though grrrr. the other incision is a hole that wasnt even stitched up and i get grossed out looking at it, i hope it closes up soon yuck! i will never forget what the surgeon said to me when i was in the recovery room, she told me i gave her trouble and they had a hard time keeping me stablelized and before she left she said someone was watching over me................ Man that really has me thinking what the heck happened in there lol. but im here so its all good!<br /><br />iv been able to eat fine, i no some people when they get their gallbladder out they have trouble eating stuff but iv been pretty lucky and nothings bothered me yet. wasnt put on any eating regiment. <br /><br />its funny how my man thinks after 1 week i should be tottally fine and able to do things as normal as before. im not suppose to lift anything heavy for 6 weeks . my bf helped me around the house for 2 days that was it then i guess he called it quits lol.<br /><br />my friend missie from the blog WHAT COMES NEXT<br />shes doing a 30 days of missie and i think its a great idea. i dont write often in my blog because i just dont no what to say and when i do write its normally just about all my darn dr appts and depressing stuff that even brings me down. so i think i might have to give this a try. so mine would be 30 DAYS OF TRACY<br />AND THIS IS WHAT THE DAYS WOULD BE ABOUT.<br /><br />Day 01 – Introduce <br />Day 02 – Your first love <br />Day 03 – Your parents <br />Day 04 – What you ate today <br />Day 05 – Your definition of love <br />Day 06 – Your day <br />Day 07 – Your best friend <br />Day 08 – A moment <br />Day 09 – Your beliefs <br />Day 10 – What you wore today <br />Day 11 – Your siblings <br />Day 12 – What’s in your bag <br />Day 13 – This week<br /><br />Day 14 – What you wore today <br />Day 15 – Your dreams <br />Day 16 – Your first kiss <br />Day 17 – Your favorite memory <br />Day 18 – Your favorite birthday <br />Day 19 – Something you regret <br />Day 20 – This month <br />Day 21 – Another moment <br />Day 22 – Something that upsets you <br />Day 23 – Something that makes you feel better <br />Day 24 – Something that makes you cry <br />Day 25 – A first <br />Day 26 – Your fears <br />Day 27 – Your favorite place <br />Day 28 – Something that you miss <br />Day 29 – Your aspirations <br />Day 30 – One last moment*Tracy*http://www.blogger.com/profile/01237935098448989031noreply@blogger.com11tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8799333039571405985.post-83839100527886882432010-08-31T00:33:00.004-04:002010-08-31T01:12:12.288-04:00im catching up!WELL i got thrue my surgery last wednesday, had ERCP done. wasnt sure if it was going to happen. i got to hospital, asked million of questions and they had needed clearance from my lung dr so he wrote them a note and said yea i can have surgery but im high risk because of lungs etc and so my dr i guess didnt realize this and was taken off guard and they acted like they didnt wanna do it. started talking about how this is a simple surgery but with my problems its different yada yada . in the end i thought i would have to stay over nite and with breathing tube down my throat but i made it thrue just fine thank god!my sis was there with me the whole time and she kinda freaked from what the drs were sayin so while i was knocked out called some family and was getting them all rowled up, i think they thought i wasnt gonna make it lol. in the end my boyfriend shed a tear for me wich iv never seen and ill take it! lol even if it was just because he was scared for me. moral of the story i made it thrue, and oh the nurses and drs seen my BIG A$$ HINEY! lol so glad i was knocked out! just knowing theyve seen me naked has me tramatized, this was my first surgery!<br /><br />But then 2 days later had a fever really bad, chills i thought would not stop. i had 2 comfortors on me, heating blanket, bf's body heat and couldnt get warm for 2 hrs then got so hot i stripped down to practically naked wich iv gotta be hot for me to be laying there like that( i like to be covered up) lol so hrs later started sweating so fever lasted from 10pm till 1pm next day! ugh i was exhuasted, my body hurt, everything hurt. i finally feel so much better today, i dont no what i had.<br /><br />i also had to do sleep study that next nite and still wasnt feeling the greatest but went and am glad i got that over with. i had to sleep with the crap mask on, well half a mask, just a piece covering my nose. it wasnt too bad.<br /><br />so iv got surgery this wednesday to get gallbladder out and hopeing that goes smoothley and then no appts for awhile i hope??????<br /><br />why is it the drs say no fatty stuff because they dont want me having a attack before my surgery, that i just wanna eat everything in site! i want pizza sooooo bad anything fried! but i no i cant have it. iv been watching what i eat pretty good because of the fear lol. wish i always had the FEAR when i ate and maybe i would make better choices.<br /><br />my son started 1st grade and seems to like it alot! im so happy. his biggest fear was making friends, he thinks if someone doesnt like you life is over! iv told him not everyone is gonna like you........ he made some new friends though and hopefully this is a good school year.<br /><br />that boy cracks me up....... bf got him a happy meal the other day and they gave him a girl toy it was alittle doll. my son was like oh a doll this is different he brushed its long hair and then got his sizzors and chopped her hair off lmao. he said her hair was too long. he luckley threw the doll out today....... i dont have a problem with him playing with dolls but he likes girl stuff alittle to much and im trying to break him of that, he use to be obsessed with purses, he likes boy stuff more these days so lets keep with that.<br /><br />did i mention im hungery! im watching food network and they have on the THE BEST THING I EVER ATE....... im salivating! but i dont eat this late so no worrys will just go to bed hungrey.<br /><br />SO anyway im just trying to get thrue things going on in my life right now and plan me some goals, things for fun i would like to do. these drs appts and test have just about sucked the life outta me.<br /><br /> i still gotta post some pics from hershey trip and first day of school just being lazy about it. my camera when i hook it up to the computer it loads every last single picture wich is like over 100 and something because i never get them developed...... oops i really need to do that. and so i dont feel like erasing the pics i already have on my computer and cant leave them either, this darn thing is slow enough! one day at a time, i will get it done lol<br /><br /><br />hope everyone is doing good..... prayers out to lucy and your drs appt tomm or i should say today, hope good news. later*Tracy*http://www.blogger.com/profile/01237935098448989031noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8799333039571405985.post-16329958829910343522010-08-25T00:17:00.004-04:002010-08-25T00:54:26.746-04:00Havent been around much because i dont wanna be a downer but tonite just had to write how im feeling!<br /><br />went to my appt with the lung dr ysterday as i needed to get results from some test iv had and clearance for my ERCP surgery today. well he started off on some results and they were good but by time he was done i just was in a daze, denial whatever you wanna say. i have interstitial lung disease wich is caused from my muscle disease. normally with the meds you take for the muscle disease it should help the lung disease but in my case its not working, its getting worse. he said i have 40% lungs working, so thats pretty depressing. said if it gets any worse id have to see about a lung transplant down the rd! :( i dont really no what to do theres nothing else the lung dr can really do for me, hes already gave me oxygen....... its all up to a rhemy specialalist to find the right medicine or switching around the meds and upping doses wich really isnt possible im on the highest dose. so my muscles arent getting better , i cant breath, what else is next! hopefully with these two surgerys , one today and the other next week ill be gallbladder free and that problem gone. MOVING ON........<br /><br />went to hershey park monday it was fun! i so didnt wanna go but bf made me and said if i didnt go he wouldnt and was just really pushing the issue so i gave in. my son had a blast, i took some pics i will post soon. i rode around on a scooter all day lol at first i was like everyones looking at me....... but then as the day went on i liked it. hershey park is quite hilly so you get a nice workout! i mean i didnt get a workout but everyone else around me sure did, we were there from 10 am to 9ish pm, it was a lonnng day! i got off the scooter at the chocolate musuem and thought ill be fine, i'll take the ride they have inside that shows you how they make chocolate and walk around look at things etc.Boy was i wrong. i get so worried that im holding everyone else up so i over did it a few times walking to fast and had to stop and really couldnt breathe, was coughing my head off ...... i got scared. my bf luckley really looks out for me and was like just take your time, forget everyone else and i no he was worried. I learned a lesson that no matter how much im embarrassed about carrying my oxygen around in this shoulder bag thing i need to, just for cases like this ! i never use it but i sure will from now ON! in the end i had a lot of fun and it was better than staying home all alone. my son starts school today, first grade, im excited for him, i hope he likes it! if he doesnt he will be sure to let me no, that boy cant keep nuthin to himself. oh and i did a drive by hit n run on the scooter! lol not really funny but i didnt realize i did it! i scraped my sons leg, he moved too close to me i say but he says i just plain ran him over! hes so dramatic, the scrape looks better today already.<br /><br />hope everyone has a good week.later*Tracy*http://www.blogger.com/profile/01237935098448989031noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8799333039571405985.post-55626542549067325342010-08-16T01:42:00.002-04:002010-08-16T02:06:31.507-04:00Had an okay weekend iv gotta really think about what we did my brain is shot these days, i have a hard time remembering things lol!<br /><br />saterday we ended up going school shopping and that is a nightmare! my son is big for his age and he wears size husky pants. went to old navy and they had one pair of jeans left in his size and husky. i guess im gonna have to shop around real hard cause husky goes fast. i did find him one pair of husky size at the thrift store and they were like new! i scored 2 like new shirts for myself. got a bookbag and so still have to get sneakers and school supplies! Man getting stuff for school gets worse every year and more exspensive grrrrr.<br /><br />went to my fathers afterwards and my older brother was there, havent seen him in months or my father for that matter, we arent close. it was a nice visit though and for once my father who normally acts like everything is okay nothings wrong with me etc , he was acting very worried about me for a change. when i got to leaving he gave me a hug and said everything will be alright, it was wierd but nice!<br /><br />my sis came over too and offered to take my son for couple days so i said sure i aint no dummy, take him! lol me and my boyfriend ended up going out to a nice dinner and coming home, to tired to go out and do anything else.<br /><br />so i thought yay ill have a few days kid free............ Hes BACK HOME ALREADY!:(<br />my sis called today and said he was crying and kept saying he missed me and wanted to come home. i tried to talk to him and see whats going on but he wont give me a straight answer. he started this crying stuff when spending the nite at someone elses like a month ago. he use to love staying at people houses but after couple hrs or one nite he wants to come home. i think hes worried about me , im not tottally sure and it could be something else but i think he hears too much about things going on. <br /><br />my family is CRAZY! i come to find out they are all talking about me behind my back like im on my death bed and talking about whos getting the kid WTH! first off im not dead and hope to not die for a veryyyyyy long time and whats going on with me is still uncertain so dont jump to conclusions geez! plus he has a daddy and hes a good one you cant just take him from him. my boyfriend aka the daddy heard all this hes the one who told me and he just shakes his head and is not letting it get to him.<br /><br />so my goal or plans this week is to call my rhemy drs office and get them on the ball about getting my medical records to the lung dr because even after iv told them over a month or so ago to do so they havent. i have a appt with lung dr thursday and so i need them sent by then. next i need to call the surgeon and see what the results are from my catscan done last tuesday and pray to god its good news!<br /> and just do some things around here that need to be done.<br /><br />well im getting sleepy i hope everyone has a good week. later*Tracy*http://www.blogger.com/profile/01237935098448989031noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8799333039571405985.post-69277737616252949172010-08-12T01:45:00.002-04:002010-08-12T02:20:11.335-04:00busy girlWell iv been a busy girl with drs appts and such so havent felt like writing!<br />i had a mri done and catscan recently. come to find out the GI DR said i probobly didnt have any stones in my bile duct......... and so i had another mri done and BAM i have multiple stones in my bile duct! :( now i have to have a ERCP done, im having it done the 25th! im nervous, iv never had any kind of surgery before. im scheduled as long as everything goes okay with ERCP to have my gallbladder removed september 1st. so had catscan done on tuesday and im waiting on results for that, they wanted to see about the mass's on my lungs i guess to see if they are still there or got bigger????? also found out tuesday when i seen the surgeon and she was going over my last catscan report that it said i had Pneumonia . well that catscan was done the 1st week of june and may 1st i was very sick for what seemed like forever so i had this for at least a month if not longer and no one told me till now. if its gone now it would be because iv been on a antibiotic for 2 yrs now, so also dont no how i got it! so this recent catscan i got done tuesday is to also make sure i still dont have it. <br /><br />I really hate when i find things out all late and wrong! <br /><br />sleep study again on saterday OH joy!<br /><br />lung dr/pulminary test next week, then following week, appt with lung dr again plus surgery then following week surgery again!<br /><br />im really not liking the month of august right now! i hope they dont add anymore test to my list i cant take no more!!!!<br /><br />Boyfriend and his boss's family wanna go to hershey park next week or soon before school starts. i could care less, i cant ride rides and i cant do all that walking so really its no fun for me. plus its exspensive $50 some dollers and not even gonna ride rides! im sure if they go ill end up going just cause i dont wanna be left out lol. ill have to get a scooter or something, geez i can see it now! <br /><br />also what sucks is my surgery thats on the 25th well thats the first day of school for my son, going into 1st grade. im gonna miss that :( im hoping my sister can get him on the bus for me.<br /><br />well thats my life these days not the greatest at the moment! I do have faith that in the end things will be better and hopefully i'll be a little better. i hope everyone is doing well, iv been slacking on blogs :( later*Tracy*http://www.blogger.com/profile/01237935098448989031noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8799333039571405985.post-57836771710532137292010-08-04T00:25:00.002-04:002010-08-04T00:41:17.329-04:00new drWent and seen a new dr today, i had to go see a gastrointernalist or something like that,i just say GI dr.<br /><br />he was awesome and not anything like my other drs lol he was like pimpin lol he had his shirt half unbuttoned and a chain and called me sweetie couple times, i dont really no what to say but he was so friendly and made me feel at ease . basically i had to go see him because the surgeon wont take my gallbladder out till this dr looked at me because i supposly had a stone stuck in my duct. this dr here says he doubts i have a stone stuck because id be in major pain everyday so he told me to get a MRI done and blood work. the last MRI i had done was last yr and thats what had stated that i had a stone stuck but the dr said hes sure iv passed it since then.<br />so made my appt for the MRI on monday, not looking forward to that i dont like inclosed spaces so i hope he can give me something to chill out. got my blood work done wich i needed to get done anyway also.<br /><br />the oxygen company called today and left me a message on when can they come out with my oxygen and show me how to use it etc. HOW ABOUT NEVER! i no the lung dr said i need it when im being active and sleeping but now that they accually wanna come deliver it its a rude awakening, i dont want it and i dont want to use it. People say you start using that stuff you'll always need it and i dont want that to happen.<br /><br />when i have trouble breathing i no how to get myself calmed down and get my breathing under control so they can bring it to me but i serouisly doubt ill use it.<br /><br />i have a busy month with dr appts iv got one for each week of this month!<br /><br />my son starts back to school the 25th so that will be nice, 1st grade! i think hes excited its hard to tell lol i think hes just excited for new clothes, he loves clothes! my sis said she would take him for a week before he goes back to school, i hope so, it would be nice for him since he hasnt seen her in quite awhile.<br /><br />hope everyone is having a good week. later*Tracy*http://www.blogger.com/profile/01237935098448989031noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8799333039571405985.post-38161967733478757482010-08-02T23:48:00.013-04:002010-08-03T00:04:44.579-04:00pics of the weekend<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjOLcDghfNzisClS1Y-EhORxBRKgTBLL2KIzXOPegBv2wF94ORcazvq6asRhtbF86F2HyCcOVI4htpzi-IGnuECQvrVj0RKMKfEdReaBuTDA2V4f3UN3_2c2jBynXcQnW-woKM7v18I4KI/s1600/36951_1347563213311_1358233440_30861243_445748_n.jpg"><img style="float:left; 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margin:0 0 10px 10px;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjUR5E4W9buMAy95djRZYlq1gxmH7bA7ufTLaEnrUP7MgoyO36WLRKxTtP77etFbtlVj5p2FRUeewZe029yzp1WRwMDWCU71ciJeHQRYC3KXpTvoce4GOj_7TJsT0YxH8I1Jh1_HwpjVo0/s320/36951_1347563293313_1358233440_30861245_2010993_n.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5501025802093016530" /></a><br />Heres some pics of demolition derby etc.......<br />THESE ARE WHAT MY FRIED PICKLES WERE SUPPOSE TO LOOK LIKE BUT DIDNT :(<br />A PIC OF ME AND MY BIG BOY! SORRY ABOUT HOW THE PICS ARE I DIDNT NO HOW TO LOAD THEM RIGHT LOL THIS IS COUNTRY LIVIN!*Tracy*http://www.blogger.com/profile/01237935098448989031noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8799333039571405985.post-18816082738301546622010-08-01T16:30:00.002-04:002010-08-01T16:46:12.264-04:00rough nite!SO the sleep study wasnt bad but it was a rough nite, i hardley slept. The woman who was to hook all the wires up to me and watch me etc she was awesome so friendly! i love when you get a nice friendly person because it really helped me to not be nervous. the room looked nothing like i thought it would it looked like a hotel room, had a full size sleep number bed. i got there at 9 had to get some blood drawn and sign some papers and by time she hooked all the wires up it was like after 10:30 so i layed there and read my book, she had to come back in my room a few times because a wire came loose. she was really watching me because theres a video thing pointed at the bed and everytime i moved or the one time i itched my finger she came on the intercom and wanted to make sure the thing she put on my hand wasnt bothering me.i went to sleep at 1 but took awhile to fall alseep i woke up at 2 and went to the bathroom. back in bed it took me forever to fall back asleep but before i new it it was 6 and she was waking me up. i told her i felt like i didnt sleep at all she told me i did reach the stage of deep sleep she didnt think i would. so hopefully i will find out soon if i have to do it again and with the mask on. luckley if i have to go back I will have her again as she works the weekends.<br /><br /><br />so i came home today and bf got me breakfast i was starving i stayed up a bit and then went to sleep till 1pm. i feel more rested now lol<br /><br />so guess who is napping now the bf! just when i wanted to go somewheres, oh well.<br /><br />not much to this weekend it was what it was but at least i got my appts done. later*Tracy*http://www.blogger.com/profile/01237935098448989031noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8799333039571405985.post-49539122280662373712010-07-31T17:35:00.002-04:002010-07-31T17:50:04.502-04:00sleepyIM so sleepy wich normally i would take a nap but i cant :( i have that sleep study tonite. im really not looking forward to this, i dont like hospitals let alone spend the nite at one! im so tired now but when i get there wich will be at 9 ill be wide awake for hrs im sure. i wish they could give me something to knock me out and not wake up till 6 lol<br /><br />Had A great time at the fair last nite with my family and my best bud, i have pics just have to get them downloaded. we watched the demolition derby wich is always fun. my bf is normally in it but couldnt find a car but as he watched from the sidelines this year hes so determined to get a car for next year! there was 4 heaps wich means different classes of cars, small medium, large. a girl won for the small class and i believe guys won for the others. tonite if their car isnt too beat up they can be in it again and win big money. <br /><br />ate some fried pickels wich werent that great, not much batter wich defeated the purpose. couple bites of my sons popcorn, a pit beef sandwich and that was it. i didnt even get a funnel cake so not bad! my bf got fried oreos they looked yummy but i didnt eat any. now im not gonna act like i just didnt want any of this stuff and im a good girl its mostly because i cant eat out too much when we go out, my tummy dont like it. i have IBS , sorry if too much info! <br /><br />today is just a lazy lazy day, bf had to work and so hes home now and snoring away, had to get up real early.<br /><br />tomorrow hopefully if it dont rain will be a day of cutting the grass wich really needs it and grocery shopping. hope everyones having a good weeked. later*Tracy*http://www.blogger.com/profile/01237935098448989031noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8799333039571405985.post-35824722200089002742010-07-29T00:32:00.003-04:002010-07-29T00:52:42.722-04:00iv got the greatest manI no iv said it alot but i just love my boyfriend, hes the best!<br /><br />He ended up getting off early today, hes a truck driver. even though he was tired and falling a sleep when he sat down he went with me to my appt at the hospital, didnt even have to ask him! i love him so much and appreciate how much he does for me. if only others could be so blessed! ARE YOU READY TO THROW UP YET OVER THIS LOVE FEST LOL<br /><br />the echo cardio gram wasnt too bad but dont like my boobies all out but i guess i need to get over that! they make you take your shirt off and no bra and put a gown on open in the front so that was alittle uncomfortable. i have no clue what i was looking at on that screen but i heard my heart so i no i do have one! lol i just hope everything looked good, fingers crossed!<br /><br />we didnt end up going to burger/karaoke nite, bf was to tired and plus we really didnt wanna spend the money as we will be going to the fair tomm nite.<br />when we go to burger nite even though its build your own burger i normally get a grilled chicken sandwich as i dont like read meat much. i got a great comment on here about when i get a burger to take the bun off and thats a great idea and i could do that with the chicken as well, iv never done it but could deffiently start! any comment as long as its not mean is welcome here, im verrrrrry easy going! lol<br /><br />oh has anyone ever had purple green beans????? we got some today from a friend and they said when you cook them they turn like a dark green. iv said many many times before i dont no how to cook good and iv never cooked fresh beans before just can lol so iv gotta figure out how to do this. we also got 100 ears of corn! couldnt pass up the deal, we will deffiently be freezing alot. well off to read some blogs before i crash, im getting sleepy! later*Tracy*http://www.blogger.com/profile/01237935098448989031noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8799333039571405985.post-37632374803385542122010-07-28T11:23:00.002-04:002010-07-28T11:31:36.478-04:00I feel so sick.......<br />i no its just a case of the nerves! i get my echo cardio gram done in couple hrs and im not so much worried about that, well at least i think im not. <br /><br />i have to go to the hospital to get this done by myself wich i hate, im use to my side kick aka my bf going with me to appts. he couldnt get off work early today though so i gotta be a big girl AND go by myself. i hate having anxiety it really sucks, makes me so nervous to just do the simple things in life, going places. <br /><br />tonites burger/karaoke nite so i gotta see when bf is getting off work and if he wants to go.<br /><br />i dont even really wanna talk about my weight right now but i gotta face the facts im gaining :( i dont no why im eating the same i was, nothings changed and i was loosing but now iv gained alot and feel like crap more than i normally feel like my crappy self! im gonna do all i can to eat good and see what happens and if i dont start loosing again im gonna chalk it up to my body being so screwed up right now with the problems i got.<br /><br />well gotta go and hit the shower,a nice hot shower always makes you feel alittle better! later*Tracy*http://www.blogger.com/profile/01237935098448989031noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8799333039571405985.post-9194837201930628272010-07-26T23:54:00.003-04:002010-07-27T00:15:13.992-04:00what to say............So had a good weekend...... saterday we were suppose to go to the harrington state fair but didnt happen, they werent opening up till later in the day because of the extreme heat. we ended up going to a amish farmers market and just walked around. later that day we had dinner with my friend and then went to karaoke and had a good time! i didnt have my son all weekend , well till 5pm sunday! so it was a nice break for me and him. his aunt who watched him took him swimming and to the county fair, he rode rides so he had fun, although she said he would cry every so often, he missed me.<br /><br />sunday we woke up to no a/c! you hear me no a/c that is a crime, im a baby i need air! its too darn hot around here for that. called bunch of stores and went to stores and no one had any window units couldnt belive it. well one place had them either walmart or kmart and the cheapest they had was $500 um yea no thanks! so called landlord and he said he would be out in the morning. so that nite had to suffer with no central air but we managed, had fans galore going! landlord came out today with a guy and he fixed it, sooooooooo happy! i lived 23 yrs of my life with my dad who we didnt a/c except in our room for at nite when going to bed, it would be like over 100 degrees in that house! crazy man dont like windows open! now days i couldnt live like that anymore! iv gotten spoiled i guess and old and fat lol<br /><br />iv got this weird thing on my finger that happened the day after i ate crabs, dont no if its related or not. its a shiny itchy like round circle on the side of my finger, pretty nice size, have no clue what it could be ugh! my leg for 2 days has been hard as a rock and red, dont no what brought that on but it hurts! such problems always.<br /><br />drs appt wednesday for a echo cardio gram(ultra sound of your heart) so i just wanna get that over with. going to the county fair this weekend to watch the demolition derby so that should be fun, hopefully its not too hot! well i guess thats it for now. im kinda slacking on reading blogs and commenting, alot on my mind with stuff going on. hope all is well. later*Tracy*http://www.blogger.com/profile/01237935098448989031noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8799333039571405985.post-51567072560951289252010-07-21T23:26:00.004-04:002010-07-21T23:35:22.237-04:00pics<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj19U_Df6fn1V6XRSeW-BCVwczQUTs_T2bNqUuuGUMoBorbEV7d8A7Y_uI4KSwNd4b5sH5Yo5K1ZaP4FruPwnfJQGBaj0Fd216Ix73bbz_1N44ChfJ-DSCdnbLmt9JKwaZtRTRkPew-wX8/s1600/38908_1404769191625_1004232749_30938531_6600981_n.jpg"><img style="float:right; margin:0 0 10px 10px;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj19U_Df6fn1V6XRSeW-BCVwczQUTs_T2bNqUuuGUMoBorbEV7d8A7Y_uI4KSwNd4b5sH5Yo5K1ZaP4FruPwnfJQGBaj0Fd216Ix73bbz_1N44ChfJ-DSCdnbLmt9JKwaZtRTRkPew-wX8/s320/38908_1404769191625_1004232749_30938531_6600981_n.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5496567567836481874" /></a><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjTuWAwwbcfE827haGqkT1ncUWjlpqKnBWcyxrwFIE2h6ExXvxXfh_POXR-Y6N1lbGEhgo32bpdPxtGBNxF6LzzT59smBardJFYxCmWIRSvRO27oQuttZ8VwOs8TA-oKE6psMukZx-2wlY/s1600/38288_1404767431581_1004232749_30938528_7875503_n.jpg"><img style="cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjTuWAwwbcfE827haGqkT1ncUWjlpqKnBWcyxrwFIE2h6ExXvxXfh_POXR-Y6N1lbGEhgo32bpdPxtGBNxF6LzzT59smBardJFYxCmWIRSvRO27oQuttZ8VwOs8TA-oKE6psMukZx-2wlY/s320/38288_1404767431581_1004232749_30938528_7875503_n.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5496567188403234722" /></a><br /><br /><br />These are the yummy crabs my honey brought me home for dinner! they are cleaned and cooked with onions and garlic and seasoning OH SO GOOD!<br /><br />The other picture is of my bichon/poo, her haircut<br /><br />Thanks for the great comments and support i really appreciate it !<br /><br />Later!*Tracy*http://www.blogger.com/profile/01237935098448989031noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8799333039571405985.post-50329531190205432492010-07-20T22:04:00.002-04:002010-07-20T22:22:13.688-04:00ugh what a day!Well i again was so dizzy today but new i had my appt with the surgion to talk about getting my gallbladder out. i met the dr and she was very nice but the appt didnt go like i thought it would..........<br /><br />she was talking about my gallstones and how my mri came back that there looks like a stone is stuck in my duct and blocking something i didnt quite understand but what she got at is i cant get my gallbladder out till i go see a GI and get the scope put down my throat and see if there is a stone stuck and if so get it removed then the surgeon will do my surgery.<br /><br />Then she gets to talking about she has my catscan reults i got it done almost 2 months ago and got my lungs checked. my rhemy dr had said i needed to go see a pulmonary dr but never said why. the surgeon starts telling me i have two masses on my lungs and they are big and it was written on the report in so many words that they cant say its not cancer! shes like dont start worrying but be prepared, im like huh???? i thought i was just getting my gallbladder stuff done and now shes freaking me out saying i might have cancer. so she asked when is my appt with the pulmonary dr, i told her i couldnt get in till end of next month. she said thats too long and she got me in today. so now i have like 5 appts i didnt have lol. oh and i come to find out i need oxygen, my levels got really low during a stress test so the dr said he would order me oyxygen. i have a sleep test next saterday and yada yada. im trying to stay positive and not think bad but its kinda hard. my mom started this way, things on her lungs and she died. im really trying to not get myself worked up, could be nuthin. this day has tottally just wore me out i just wanna go to bed!<br /><br />theres just so much going on medically and with still no meds and insurance dont wanna pay so we gotta appeal............. ill be alright i no im just real down right now. anyway im not going to talk about it anymore and just live my life, cant let every rd block get me down. hope everyone is well. later*Tracy*http://www.blogger.com/profile/01237935098448989031noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8799333039571405985.post-37379020167637477232010-07-19T01:49:00.002-04:002010-07-19T02:08:00.662-04:00case of the dizzysIv been dizzy for days but today was really bad! i wonder if its from me not taking that one med anymore that i ran out of hmmmmmmm, i really gotta get that straightend out. im just tired of getting the run around and i really just cant concentrate.<br /><br />had a tomatoe sandwich with the farm tomatoes i bought , added some light mayo and yummo! i dont think i will ever ever buy a tomatoe at the grocery store again, they just seem to be so flavorless.<br /><br />The band saterday nite was pretty good and i enjoyed myself, even had a corona w/ lime. okay i had 1 n 1/2 corona w/lime lol. i couldnt finish it all and it was making feel ick! i sat there from 830 till i guess 12 something. buy time i got home i was swelled up and hurting like a mofo!<br /><br />a cool thing that happened though is the lady in the band came up to me and said your awesome and i was like huh??? she said i remember you from karaoke and you sing really good. i finally figured out why she looked formilure. iv only met her once and that was 3 yrs ago but YEA she remembered me right away lol. the band is having a summer bash next month at their home and will be having other bands there as well. she said i could get up and sing some songs with the band if i wanted, so cool!<br /><br /><br />Have plans to go out again this saterday with some friends hope i feel good enough!<br /><br />my son lost his 2nd tooth last nite, thank god! hes been so whiny here latley and complaining about that tooth so im glad its out! iv just gotta try to play tooth fairy again , its a hard thing to do. if i go near him when hes sleeping sometimes he wakes up, so then i cant slip the money under the pillow. TRUST ME I TRIED LAST nite with no luck! i will try again here in a bit.<br /><br />tuesday i see the surgeon for my consultation on getting my gallbladder out, i hope it goes well. i hate seeing new drs!!!! then later that nite is the seminar i have to go to for weight loss surgery. i filled out the 17 pages tonite that i have to turn in.<br /><br />i hope i feel better this week cause this sucks, i was just starting to feel good...... hope everyone has a great week. later*Tracy*http://www.blogger.com/profile/01237935098448989031noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8799333039571405985.post-81978218755911989532010-07-17T19:28:00.003-04:002010-07-17T19:36:57.220-04:00headin outIm breaking free, im getting out! wahoooooo<br /><br />Going to listen to a band tonite,its country/rock. its my friends band and this is their first show, iv never heard them play so looking forward to it. i also wanna see just how good they really are. see this guy the lead singer he comes to karaoke where i go and i like him and hes nice and he can sing good but can be really annoying! hes one of those guys that no's hes good and just acts cocky ugh really hate that!<br /><br />i no i no i shouldnt because of my meds but i think im gonna have a beer, shush dont tell anyone! lol<br /><br />its been a nice day so far, i slept in got showered we then went to a little amish produce market and i got me some tomatoes and corn on the cobb and some bananna bread. hope its tasty!<br /><br />gonna go get ready for my nite out.......... hope everyone is having a good weekend. later*Tracy*http://www.blogger.com/profile/01237935098448989031noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8799333039571405985.post-39243051368648999132010-07-17T01:52:00.003-04:002010-07-17T02:12:18.713-04:00dropping like fliesMan my followers are dropping like flies! You dont love me no more :( oh well i didnt start this blog for anyone but myself and if you choose to not follow anymore its your choice.<br /><br />im alittle stressed / confused. i called my rheumatologist on tuesday early. i was directed to leave a msg so i did, i said i was out of meds and needed them i had no more refills and because the dosage on the bottle doesnt match what im suppose to accually take i keep running out to soon. so iv called the pharmacy everyday since tuesday hoping my dr called my meds in , no luck. here its friday and they did call them in, what the heck took so long! new problem! my insurance doesnt want to pay for my meds or give me what i need because something about they will pay for 3 pills and not 5 like i need and need some kind of authorization yada yada i really dont understand.<br /><br />i just no i just got this new insurance in july and i dont like them already!!! meds that were suppose to be covered arent being covered etc, i really dont no what to do.<br /><br />so im going on 4 days now without my IMURAN that im suppose to take everyday. i feel okay for now but im afraid its going to slowey sneek up on me. wich scares me and gets me to start worrying probably over nuthin but still.i take this for my muscles and it wasnt doing that great of a job alone so we added other stuff but if we have to cut this med out then what???? i dont need my progress to start going backwards when im trying to get weight loss surgery. its really hard for me to explain what i really mean and feel. anyway.........<br /><br />went swimming today that was great! i made sure to jump around and move my legs as much as possible for exercise! my bf and son thought that was funny! had chinese for dinner, big mistake my tummy hasnt felt good sense and i have really really bad heartburn or how do i explain this dull ache in my tummy that just feels like its gonna explode any minute????<br /><br />not sure whats on the agenda for the weekend..... hopefully get the truck washed and maybe go swimming again. hope everyone has a good one. later*Tracy*http://www.blogger.com/profile/01237935098448989031noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8799333039571405985.post-43550208223813103682010-07-15T16:29:00.002-04:002010-07-15T16:35:38.295-04:00the sun is out!This good mood today is brought to you by the SUN! its finally out! OH and it helps that iv lost 7lbs since yesterday lol. i tell you when i swell i swell.<br /><br />i dont really have much to say but thought i write something anyhow. im just sitting here listening to some music.<br /><br />had some yummy lowfat eggrolls! iv been craving chinese so bad, i dream of the buffet at nite haha.<br /><br />incase you hadnt noticed im always all over the place when i write...... im the same way in my life, like when your talking to me. one minute we can be talking about something and ill jump to something else and then back to what we were talking about before. i guess i do that because ill forget what i have to say lol. although i do that when i shop as well. i see a shirt and keep going back to it like a couple times before i can truley make up my mind. <br /><br />well gonna go, later!*Tracy*http://www.blogger.com/profile/01237935098448989031noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8799333039571405985.post-11014790164315954502010-07-14T16:55:00.001-04:002010-07-14T16:56:43.983-04:00whered the blogs goI tried reading blogs today but it said i have none i follow???? whats up with that, whered they go :(*Tracy*http://www.blogger.com/profile/01237935098448989031noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8799333039571405985.post-65284061124569778812010-07-14T16:40:00.003-04:002010-07-14T16:52:55.430-04:00bla bla blaThats how i feel! iv felt just yucky since monday..... no energy, body hurting, bloated etc! im up 12lbs in a week ugh! i no im swollen i can really feel the difference and it sucks!<br /><br />ITS MAKING ME SO DARN MISERABLE! luckley my bf no's if he comes home from work and im in bed that means i dont feel good and leave me alone lol.<br /><br />even though i dont feel good we are going to go to karaoke/burger nite. i dont feel like cooking but for once in 2 days i dont really feel like eating either. im really just going so my son can get out of the house for a bit, its been miserable here for days with all the rain. we need it but i still hate it!<br /><br />on a different note wish that when i plan something with someone or someone says they can or going to do something that i didnt have to keep worrying or checking up on them to make sure it was gonna happen. wish i more than like 1 or 2 people i could depend on, no questions asked!<br /><br />carnival is here tomm in are town so might be taking the kid, depends on how he acts. hes been so mouthy latley but i think it has some to do with being stuck in the house . is no one reading my blog anymore , no one really leaves comments :( you could just say hi, bye, how the hell or you lol. well gonna go , later*Tracy*http://www.blogger.com/profile/01237935098448989031noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8799333039571405985.post-14299285803851695592010-07-11T10:40:00.002-04:002010-07-11T11:04:44.370-04:00partySO here i sit just waiting to get in the shower. my son is still sleeping!its 10:42 hes normally been up for couple hrs by now. ever since he got out of school for the summer hes been going to bed so late.... oh well he can enjoy it while he can till school starts back up.<br /><br />we have a birthday party to go to today and so since its so hot! the kids will be on the super water slide as usual. momma here will be in the house with the a/c haha.<br /><br />i tried some greek yogurt today since some of you rave about it and i wanted to see what it taste like........ not bad, alot less sweet than regular yogurt i think but id probaly buy again , more so if it went on sale. i normally just buy whats on sale if i can.<br /><br />we went grocery shopping yesterday and spent lots of money, we only go once a month and so the bill was almost $400 geez! prices on food go up everytime i turn around. but now we got so much food in the house i dont no what to eat first. its bad when you dont have any food in the house but its just as bad when we have alot because then i think i eat more!<br /><br />iv talked before on here about getting weight loss surgery and i finally did something about it. i called a place im interested in getting it done and tryed to set up an appt but was told i have to go to a seminar first. so they have one on the 20th of this month im getting my sister to go with me, hopefully she dont back out! after i go then i can get an appt with a surgion. im already thinking because im just miss suzie sunshine full of postiveness YEA RIGHT! that hes gonna say he cant do it right now because im not healthy enough yada yada. i hope thats not the case so thats why im just gonna go ahead with this anyhow and see what they say, you never no!<br /><br />Im so suprised my bf is okay with this, i had to ask him because he takes such good care of me now would he want the added mess that im going to have to go thrue and hes fine with it. but of course he did say why are you doing this now you need to focus on getting your gallbladder out wich i am, i see the surgion on the 20th. <br /><br />i guess because now i have insurance i wanna get done all that i need to get done before god forbit my insurnace ends. i no what its like to have no insurance and its hard! exspecially if you have to get test done all the time and lots of places now wont even see you without insurance!<br /><br />i dont no maybe im putting to much on myself right now and this isnt going to be a good idea but for some reason i just gotta try! <br /><br />we got our bichon/poodle a haircut yesterday,nails cut, ears cleaned, the works i love it! but if you seen her you wouldnt no what breed she is because she just doesnt look the same. i got her hair cut the shortest possible, she looks so skinny! we had to get her haircut because it got so long and curly and everytime we gave her a bath it would just get so notted up even when i brushed it and matted! the groomer said theres nothing i can do about it its gonna happen so we are gonna keep it short for now. this is officially my new fave grooming place, it cost $35 and they didnt knick her up at all like the other place and they put a bow on her coller :)<br /><br />its a shame i need a haircut and highlight so bad but the dog got her hair done first lol<br /><br />well gonna get off here and get ready. stay cool, later!*Tracy*http://www.blogger.com/profile/01237935098448989031noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8799333039571405985.post-10147672872917044452010-07-07T00:44:00.004-04:002010-07-07T01:05:30.522-04:00<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEije_YH6Sgqf35C_hEhwg66nild4pcszedntbUR8Tq-z4YZsW54X4gWvQRLdCmvjXrbRPlmVnbFF0Tv0ZcxvVUb-4HnLT5F1J4pMWCnnqnTzdudRvVfsUQvLBotlZJnpDVvaTKoJ0Vfobw/s1600/37217_1320533012896_1217931841_30716619_3136287_n.jpg"><img style="cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEije_YH6Sgqf35C_hEhwg66nild4pcszedntbUR8Tq-z4YZsW54X4gWvQRLdCmvjXrbRPlmVnbFF0Tv0ZcxvVUb-4HnLT5F1J4pMWCnnqnTzdudRvVfsUQvLBotlZJnpDVvaTKoJ0Vfobw/s320/37217_1320533012896_1217931841_30716619_3136287_n.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5491025880612476418" /></a><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhywRaFV2xzRKXWbhyzeYUu3wjoSNdCjX5yMFEENcygX_cF-1WPs7Yl_6UC8Y7necL6GLe4sBHA8pNu7r5d5kMQ8KghL1RDE4C6anqpVVUqoP3JiC95AyMUU5MJofmQ0ItSEZyc3mPbFUo/s1600/36342_1320530412831_1217931841_30716597_7545373_n.jpg"><img style="cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhywRaFV2xzRKXWbhyzeYUu3wjoSNdCjX5yMFEENcygX_cF-1WPs7Yl_6UC8Y7necL6GLe4sBHA8pNu7r5d5kMQ8KghL1RDE4C6anqpVVUqoP3JiC95AyMUU5MJofmQ0ItSEZyc3mPbFUo/s320/36342_1320530412831_1217931841_30716597_7545373_n.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5491025691122873890" /></a><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhOU2cowY81mSjqkLYgczmtbmVcA8TABiTf9va13Q4hrNKzH8ub-y-bDnqKng44f6eftLP7WSdehM0jC9uuau-79HESodoVcWk4i0q0x1bhgOf3jJFDEru5XRTC0CwcXWPasfhj0S7UqUE/s1600/36342_1320530212826_1217931841_30716592_3101716_n.jpg"><img style="cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhOU2cowY81mSjqkLYgczmtbmVcA8TABiTf9va13Q4hrNKzH8ub-y-bDnqKng44f6eftLP7WSdehM0jC9uuau-79HESodoVcWk4i0q0x1bhgOf3jJFDEru5XRTC0CwcXWPasfhj0S7UqUE/s320/36342_1320530212826_1217931841_30716592_3101716_n.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5491024610158343490" /></a><br />Wow its been so hot and no end in site! today was around 100 and tomm is suppose to be too! I had a great weekend. saterday we went over bf cousins and had a bbq and put the water slide up. sunday i was feeling so bad!!!! bf went to walmart to see what he could do about getting me some predinsone. i ran out and called it in last week, i had just enought to last me till i picked up the prescription. well i had no refills. my dr had a week to call me some more in but ovouisly didnt, go figure! This is a medicine i have to have and i take it everyday. just going couple hrs without it my body was killing me and i felt like i had the flue. my bf managed to get me some from an old prescription, screw u drs office, im really not liking them right now! we went to my friends house for bbg and then we went and seen the fireworks. the place were we parked to see them we set up are chairs and there was accually dominos pizza there lol. the boys started begging for a pizza and so my friends dad bought the boys a pizza. a delivery person just walked around selling medium pizzas for $5. they just walk right up to where ever you were sitting, it was crazy to me lol, it was a nice time.<br /><br />This sunday is my anniversary, me and my bf will have been together for 8 yrs! i no im probaly driving him crazy by keep reminding him of the day but for me its special. iv never been in a relationship this long so it means alot to me. we have no special plans, we accually have a birthday party to go to and thats about it. maybe i can get him to take me out to dinner saterday.<br /><br />This week feels like its going by slow and im just miserable, just moody and not happy! i think i need to go swimming if i can ever get the vehicle to go.<br /><br />im gonna try to post some pics of my son on the water slide. stay cool, later!*Tracy*http://www.blogger.com/profile/01237935098448989031noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8799333039571405985.post-34441297346476206432010-07-02T00:47:00.004-04:002010-07-02T02:41:29.827-04:00drs appts/crabsI FINALLY got my drs appts all set up im so happy! i put it off for long enough and then something just got me motivated today to stop delaying and just do it! good thing too, i couldnt get in to see the lung dr till august 19th and the 31st geez thats a long wait! i go see the surgeon on the 2oth of this month to talk about getting my gallbladder out, yay! so im moving along slowley but surley.<br /><br />my mouth or i should say left gum is KILLING ME!!! i have what i believe to be a wisdom tooth coming in on my bottom row, the tooth dosent hurt its my gum, ouch! hope it goes away soon, i dont have dental insurance nor the funds for that right now!<br /><br />my girly friend invited me to lunch tomm so we are going to don pablos/ mexican food. iv never been so hope its good, hope i can eat with this pain. i think im gonna stop and get some numbing type gel and see if that helps the pain.<br /><br />we had crabs last saterday THEY WERE SO GOOD OMG! my bf's boss invited us over for crabs so we went. he cooks them like this, he takes off the shell and cleans them good then cooks them with old bay seasoning, onions, garlic and oh my heaven! you get spoiled so you wouldnt want a regular ole crab lol. we went swimming also it was a nice time. my sis n law watched my son, she offered so hey why not thats a bonus being kid free!<br /><br />This weekend no real plans for saterday but sunday going to my girlfriends house for bbq and kids are gonna play on the water slide, fireworks after. it should be fun! <br /><br />Thank god my insurance started for my medicine because im all out and i aint feeling too hot! i figured i could go one day without some pills but im deffiently getting them filled tomm!<br /><br />i love my dad with all my heart but he just doesnt get it some times. i talked to him today and he was asking me how im doin...... well normally i dont say how i truley am doing health wise cause he doesnt understand but today i told him about the new drs iv gotta see etc....... he was like all you need to do is loose weight and you will be fine. WHAT????#?$?%/6/ this really pisses me off!I NO I NEED TO LOOSE WEIGHT GEEZ, but my problem isnt caused by my weight, iv even lost weight. he doesnt believe in taking medicine for anything and hes very old fashion. i think next time we talk i will just stick with im fine if he asks how im doing.<br /><br />The weather here in MD has been beautiful and not to hot! wish it would stay that way but i no it soon shall pass.<br />well gonna go im alittle tired. hope everyone has a safe and fun 4TH! later!*Tracy*http://www.blogger.com/profile/01237935098448989031noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8799333039571405985.post-73989970537764389952010-06-23T21:57:00.002-04:002010-06-23T22:03:25.141-04:00im over it!When i read my post from earlier i realized it was a downer and i was having a mood swing! im better now and not so woa is me!<br /><br />Had a great nite at burger nite and karaoke at the local bar/restaurant! had a yummy burger with mushrooms and cheese, couple fries. <br /><br />might be getting crabs this weekend if the paycheck looks good. we no people who go crabbing so hopefully we can get a good deal.<br /><br />hmmmmmmmm crabs, maybe a alchol beverage(yea right) i can dream on the drink, a nice ice cold pool, hope it happens!<br /><br />tata*Tracy*http://www.blogger.com/profile/01237935098448989031noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8799333039571405985.post-72069812189254533072010-06-23T16:34:00.002-04:002010-06-23T16:45:07.310-04:00finallyWell drs office finally called today, took em long enough! my dr wanted to no if i had made my appt with the lung dr yet wich i havent because i thought i could wait alittle longer since i need to get an appt with a surgion first for my gallbladder. so anyway my results showed that my lungs have changed and gotten worse, they were compared to Feb 09. so its like iv waited all this time and wanted a answer now i have one and all its done is freak me out!!! lol<br /><br />i dont want a lung problem, my mom died from lung cancer and iv always been afraid im gonna die young like her. i need to stop thinking like that and just try to take care of myself the best i can.<br /><br />i need to really call these people and get appts set up but i keep putting it off...... why??????? i think im just scared and rather pretend i dont have a problem. i guess its the same reason why i cant loose weight and keep it off. i figure im fat im not hurting anyone. but really im hurting myself. i just feel like theres so much going on with me right now its a little overwelming! i need to loose weight, iv got a lung problem, iv got muscle disease, iv got a bad gallbladder. its like what the hell else! iv gotta quit feeling sorry for myself and do something about it i no, thats the first step! sorry such a downer these are just the thoughts in my head today! its a hot one out there, stay cool. later*Tracy*http://www.blogger.com/profile/01237935098448989031noreply@blogger.com1