bye bye weekend

Where o where did the weekend go?????? this weekend was boring and just sucked lol maybe thats why it went so fast. its pouring down rain right now and suppose to rain for couple more days. i hate when its like this, alittle rain i can do with. when its a muddy mess outside no thank you! my little girl( dog) she dont like the rain much and its a pain to get her outside when its like this. plus i just gave her a bath last nite, shes smells so good , nice and powdery! that has to be my most favorite smell in the world, baby powder!

all we did today was hit walmart and went to grocery store. we rented blindside from the redbox, man thats a good movie, i really did enjoy it!

i got my new meds today and man do i feel so sick! i took one around 6 and felt awesome like 30 mins later its a pain pill, oxycodone or something like that........ but then like 20 mins later i got such a huge headache and felt so nauseas, and i still feel that way. plus i felt like i had to keep moving, like my leg or arm or something. this was only 5 mil but man do they not make me feel good. not sure what to do to just stop taking them or only take before i go to bed or nap or i have to get use to them, dunno. i just no it helped with the pain and i like that. its generic for percaset and dr didnt want to give me those because they have more tylenol in those and im to not have alot of tylenol because of my liver.

what i dont get is i no i didnt feel good today and pretty much wanted to be alone yet i no we had to go to the store. so i wasnt bitchy or anything just kept quite and just wanted to get done what we had to get done and go home......... why is it then that my loving family, they say they hate when i get moody and bitchy yet they dont leave me alone! its like aggrevate mom, get her yellin lol all when im tryin to just chill and not be like that. i will never understand, if i no someone dont feel good or is in a bad mood i stay clear away from them. my weird fam is like drawn to me lol.

i really hope this is a good week but with all the rain i dunno. bf probobly wont have alot of work because of it and that stresses me out! no work means no pay, so come friday that paycheck is not going to be good! hope everyone has a good week!

did i have a fever or not???

Sometimes i get the chills and some times i dont. well today i had the chills and so after i got my son on the bus i went back to bed and bundled up. at some point couple hrs later i woke up to find myself half uncovered and drenched in sweat, so did i just break a fever? i thought i read somewheres thats what that means but im not sure. i surley didnt feel good this morning thats for sure. iv had me a bowl of chicken noodle soup and some crackers and feel alittle better. my weights down 8 pds for the week wich is always nice, im not As swollen so thats why my weights down. no plans for the weekend, wich is kind of good dont really have the money right now to spend. so i guess that will be it for now, gonna go take something for this lingering headache. have a good weekend.

went to the drs today/ beach pics

I went to my drs appt today with the rheumatologist it went well. we upped my meds and im to get blood work done in 4 weeks. luckley my liver is reacting good to the meds. some people cant take it cause it can cause liver damage. my dr wants me to when my new insurance kicks in in june to go to john hopkins where they specialize in this. hes really pushing the matter lol like iv said before he really doesnt no where to go from here with me and my non responding to the meds.

on a good note i had a wonderful weekend!!! the beach trip was just what i needed and i wish i could have stayed longer. being back home is nice but it was just such a nice change of scenery there that being back here is drag! i went to the outlets with the girls and we hit the coach store, i wanted a purse so bad but couldnt bring myself to pay that kind of money, even what was on sale just wasnt on sale enough for me lol. hit some other stores and got my son some summer clothes and bought me a shirt and cheap necklace . all in all i didnt do to bad and didnt spend too much money.we then went to rehobeth boardwalk and ate some thrashers fries omg they are heaven soooo good, and people watched. my bf then met us later and had lunch with us and then i left the girls they had to get back home and we went a found a hotel in ocean city and stayed the nite. it was a very nice hotel and i plan on staying there again in the future. we went to the boardwalk at nite and walked alittle but i really tired and it was so windy out it was freezing! luckley my room faced the ocean and was on the 11th floor so i had an awesome view and just listened to the waves, so peaceful! my son got up in the morning and went swimming the hotel had a indoor pool. and so again i had a great time , wish i could do it more often. will share some pics. we sent the doggie to the kennel for the nite and i really liked the attention they gave her and when we picked her up they had a report card on her behavior and she got an A lol .they checked her over and said shes a healthy girl, didnt no they do that. so i will be deffiently using that place again in the future.

well i guess thats it for now, i hope the week continues to be good. tata

not always a happy camper

Iv come to the conclusion that my blog has many ups and downs, somedays im happy some im miserable, wish i could always be happy but i dont see that happening!

Got alot done today, bf was done work early so we to dmv and got tags for the truck, plus my handicapped sticker. had burger king for lunch it was okay but sometimes i dont no why i eat that junk it just makes me wanna yack!

so by this point i needed a nap, im tired and hurting, it was a rainey day.......... so came home and layed down for an hr and then my son was done school so had to get him off the bus. drs office called today with my blood work results ck( muscle levels) was 3100 it hasnt changed in 2 months so at my appt on tuesday we will discuss what to do. im on the highest dose of imuran and so i guess we will have to go to highest does of methotrexate, im on 15 mil right now. coming down the predisone just isnt working out, i started at 60 mil two yrs ago and im only down to 20 mil right now i should be lower but every time we try to go lower my ck starts increasing and i start getting bad again. but enough talk of this its just depressing.......

my morning was truley just full of drama and had my adrenaline going and so coming down off the excitement i felt soooo crappy. had it out with my sis this morning i wanted to talk about things and try to fix or relationship but instead she wrote me a nasty note on fb so i wrote one back and pretty much said i wash myself of you. she told me she had a good life and had everything she wanted and that ment that she didnt need me in it. this fight here started because i called her a b$tch because i found out she took me off her friends list on fb and i couldnt understand why, iv never done anything to her so i was hurt. so anyway someone told her i called her that, like its the worst thing someones ever called her. iv been called that so much in my life it dont bother me because you no what some days i can be one! anyway so i told her yea i called u that and tried to explain why but no she dont want nuthin to do with me yet........... i come to find out that she talks about me all the time. she goes around telling people that i use her daughter, the one that comes to see me, that she drives me all over the place and etc . so i confronted her daughter and she said that her mom does say that about me and basically my sis dont want her talking to me anymore, because me and my sis have no relationship they dont want me and her daughter to have one. they( they is my sis and her husband that my sis chose over me) were accusing her of being on my side and not being loyal lol. such drama over stupid stuff! so had heart to heart with my niece and she was upset and wants to be in my life and doesnt understand why her mother is being this way, i told her mom to grow up and realize she lost a sister . i blocked my sis on fb so she cant write me anymore nasty notes. i hope me and niece can move on and that my sister one day will wake up ! i wish her well, after all i do still love her but sometimes u gotta let go. i no some of this doesnt make sense and theres alot iv left out but really talking about it just is painful and when i truley never did anything wrong to her . oh well gotta move on........

on a happier note im off for the beach at 8:30 am tomm and hope to have a good day. have a good weekend.

everyone talks about someone behind their back at some point!

SO today was a pretty typically day not much going on. i was very tired today and achy and had a headache bla.
i was suppose to go to a viewing for a friend from karaoke his son died in a car accident, such a terrible tragidy! i didnt go though, again i wasnt feeling well and i just cant be around people crying, id loose it! i see someone crying i start bawling! my consious or however you spell it is kicking in though.... i should have just sucked it up and went , i feel bad now. another case of me using an excuse to not do something that involves being around alot of people and people i dont no.

so family drama begains and rears its ugley head. basically me and my niece have gotten close latley shes 18 . im so proud of her shes graduating this year and a good girl. shes a big girl like me but does her thing and doesnt let anything hold her back and im happy about that and wish i was like that. anyway people in the family are jealous of are relationship and so they are talking crap and trying to turn her against me now wth! so bascially i had a talk with her and told her you no how i feel about you, believe what you want......... i cant deal with drama and dont need it in my life, me and drama dont do well, it makes me feel sick because im constantly worrying and thinking about stuff that really is just dumb! so i just hope she doesnt let others control her feelings and she will continue to talk to me.

theres so much more to the story but i just dont wanna get into it but this whole thing ruined my sons weekend and i feel so bad. im going to the beach saterday for the outlets and my son was suppose to be going to my sisters new house down the beach, the sis who are relationship is rocky. my boyfriend then decided he would meet me down the beach later that day and we would get a hotel room for the nite so then i could stay longer at the beach and hit the boardwalk and go to dinner etc.

well we forgot we have a puppy.......... you sometimes dont think about that when you get an animal. you can leave a cat at home and its fine, a dog no! so i was like darn what we gonna do???? i dont really have anyone to watch my pup so im trying to find a pet friendly hotel. where are they?????? i found 2 thats it! and back to my sons weekend getting ruined, my sis was going to watch him but because of the drama shes started hmmmmm now she said shes not going to watch him. she told him she would take him to the rides at the beach, buy him something, take him out to eat..... now shes not going to. okay have a problem with me but dont make the kid suffer that just isnt right! so i told him he wouldnt be seeing her and he was sooooo upset and it upsets me. so im trying to figure out how he can have a good weekend too. so the plan is maybe ....ill do my outlet shopping with the girls during the day, bf ride down its 2hrs or more away, get a room, thats excepts dogs, have the kid with us and take him to the boardwalk and rides. so we'll see.

now iv gotta be a big girl and call my sis and see if i can get this all straightened out because my son shouldnt have to suffer just because we are fighting. iv never kept him from her but she here latley will just cancel plans with him because of me, how old are we????

im sooo glad tomm is friday , no real reason just am. hope its sunny and warm but i dont think so, i think a cold front is coming in.

missing the bowl/ shes a woman now

Today was a rainey day ugh! sunshine come out come out wherever you are you tease!
i have a busy week , well busy to me, to u's this is nuthin.......

today i had to get my bloodwork done so that it will be ready by time i go to my drs appt next tuesday. we have to drop the truck off at the dealership tomm because even though it passed PA inspection it didnt pass Maryland??? something about a ball joint??#$?%?%?

soooooo the dealership said if it didnt pass they would fix the problem, so talked to the owner of ford and we drop it off tomm and will have it back tomm nite. just a big old pain in the rear though because we have to drive it there and then have someone give us a ride home, its in quarryville pa and thats like an hr or something away. Then we have to find someone to give us a ride back there tomm nite to pick it up grrrrrrr. if its not to late will probobly just go to the usual burger nite place and sing karaoke, get my one song in haha, they are always so busy!

this weeks is going by prettty fast, wasnt the weekend just here???? not complaining though........ saterday is my beach day and going shopping at the outlets YES YES YES! looking forward to it cant you tell lol.

okay so does anyone out there have a little one, like around 6, 7, 8 or whatever age and a boy and who just cant seem to PEE IN THE TOLIET!!! omg my son woke up late last nite , i heard him go to the bathroom, i was watching tv.............. i went in there later........he never made it in the bowl he PEED ALL OVER THE BATHROOM NO LIE! the toliet seat was down so he never lifted the lid or seat and just peed all over the damn place. i was sooooo mad! so i had to wipe down the shower curtain the floor the toliet, you name it with bleach. luckley its his bathroom and i dont use it yuck! no matter how much i clean that place it still smells like pee from him missing. i dont no what to do......... iv done the yelling, the bribing etc. he does good and then its back to not being able to aim. okay so im sure you wanted to no all that but i had to have something to talk about hehehehe.

my little girl pup is a woman now lol shes got her period......... we are trying to decide wether to get her fixed are let her get pregnant one time. we would have to find a male dog of course wich im not sure how to go about that. shes a bichon/poo so the mate would have to be that are one are thee other. plus what if we cant find homes for these pups and who no's if she can have pups and who no's how many she might have, just so much to think about, makes me a nervous mummy!

well thats it for now i guess, tata! happy hump day :P

Hi im back!
after i vented and cryed and wanted to scream........... i feel better! i guess i was having a woe is me moment and just needed to get out how i was feeling. now i feel dumb....... oh well, im gonna start making me happy and not let things bring me down.