hot and humid!

IM so glad i dont have to be out in the heat or work in it, id never last! iv been spoiled by the a/c! iv been a busy girl or i should say busyier, i never truly have a busy life wich thats the way i like it. thats why i live in the country now its a slower way of life lol.

we went to the fair over the weekend and that was a great time! my boyfriend was in the demilition derby and he made out pretty good but didnt win. his car didnt get beat up too bad so he was able to use the car the next nite in the derby, he didnt drive it though a friend did. then he sold the car to a scrap company that was there. two years ago they gave us $250 for the deby car this year only $75 that sucks! the price for scrap metel sure has went down.

helped host a jewlery party and that was fun, i didnt get any free stuff :( but lots of discounts!
this sunday we are going to a seafood festival with my good friend and that should be fun. i plan on tasting some aligater nuggets i seen they will have hmmmmmmm wonder what they taste like?
overall life is good, talking to my sister again, we arent close close like we use to be and it doesnt upset me like it use to but we are talking and shes spending time with my son again. she says hes such a joy to be around and never a problem!

i havent been been feeling well latley i dont no what is up. i no my muscle test arent good and arent getting anybetter but iv always pretty much felt the same but these past 2 weeks iv just felt BAD! my body pain normally goes away when i take my meds but its been really bad to the point that i want pain pills thats all i think about because tylonal just isnt cutting it anymore. headaches glore and just feel nausea. almost like the flue except no throwing up! guess its time to get blood work done , i havent had it done in a month , and see whats going on. well heres your entry lucy, glad you check up on me to see if im a live just kidding! i hope everyone has a good week. hugs

soooooo its been awhile yet again lol! im doing pretty good just taking it day by day!

my boyfriend is suppose to be in the demolition derby the end of this month at the fair and so hes been trying to get his car done, has to tear alot of stuff out. so iv been going swimming at his cousins while hes doing that, love getting in a pool, well a inground pool! its very good for strengthing my legs wich i need! after i get done swimming im soooooo tired and have accually fell asleep sitting there in the chair drying off lol.

tomm( saterday) is me and my boyfriends 7yr anniversary, im sooooo happy! this is my longest relationship iv ever had, normally only last almost a yr, so this is an accomplishment! i love this man with all my heart! hes been there for me thrue my bad times being sick and just has always taken such good care of me and my son! we are planning on going out to dinner somewheres nice, not sure where yet. well somewhere he can still wear jeans and a nice shirt, the man hates to dress up :(

on the sad front my sister whom i use to be close with we are no longer close and i really truley have no idea why. we had the fall out back in feb over something stupid and it took over a month to talk again but i thought things were fine. seen her on easter and things were fine and ever since then she just doesnt have time for me or my son. i havent accually talked to her, heard her voice in like 2 months. weve maybe exchanged emails like 3 times since may. she just always sayd she's sooooo busy, i say bullshit! i realize people get busy but that doesnt mean stop talking to the ones you love. and i called her out on it because my son is upset that he never sees her anymore and she doesnt talk to him. hes 5, he was soooo close to her and then she does this, i dont think its right. all i ask from her is to see her once a month for couple hrs i really dont think thats too much to ask. shes like a mother to me but now im being pushed to the side till she has time for me. i let her no how i was feeling and how hurt i am and what did i get as a repley back...... nothing its been 2 weeks since i wrote her and shes said nothing so shes avoiding the issue. so i say forget it! im tired of people never being there for me, i try so hard to be there for the people i love, its really not that hard. shes soooo busy she went to boston couple weeks ago for the weekend for the heck of it for no reason, i say thats bullshit! thats the word of the day i guess! so i warned her the more you push me away the more ill stay away and when you finally do have time for me i wont be here, im like that with everyone. anyway it hurts it sucks and iv gotta quit dwelling on it.

things have been just really good around here otherwise and im loving life! i hope everyone else is doing good, gotta catch up on blogs, same ole story right lol. have a good weekend. hugs

its been awhile

Hey,

so its been awhile........i figured id write a post for mrs lucy luc since shes wondering whats going on with me! what have i been up too well not to much really just life. i went and got my hair done on sunday and i love it, very manageable and more blonde wich is more to my liking :)

iv been feeling pretty good for the most part, i have my days but dont we all. i did have to go to the emergency room 2 weeks ago because of my darn gallbladder again and if i had known they can give you something for the pain i would have went all the time instead of dealing with it. i was in lala land after they doped me up, it was great lol and since then no attacks so i hope and pray i dont have one anytime soon. anything brings it on anymore, those attacks i hadnt eaten anything or drank anything to bring it on. the emergency room dr was sooooo nice too and good looking lol!

i went to a jewlery party last week, my first time it was lia sophia jewlery and i have to say the stuffs pretty nice, it was fun. i am helping to host one in august with my sister n law so that should be intresting. when i told some people i had went to a jewlery party because i was inviting them to the one im hosting and when i showed them my new hair cut they called me spoiled. okay i might be spoiled in someways but not always only when we have some extra cash. i dont no why i let it bug me so much, its my life , dont be jealous because my boyfriend treats me good! but i think alot of it has to do with because i dont have to work and they do and so my boyfriend buys me things when we have extra cash like i said. i really need to quit letting people bring me down and making me feel bad for what i have, dont i deserve a good life without being considered spoiled? i didnt always appreciate my life but i appreciate everything now!

anyway............. my son gets out of school on the 16th and after that i dont no what we are gonna do, hes gonna be bored out of his mind staying at home with mommy all day lol. he will be going to kindergarden next year, time is just a flyin by.

i have a wedding to go to this weekend its beachy casual dress so that works just not sure what to wear but im sure ill find something. my boyfriend doesnt wanna go so ill just be going and thats fine with me, will be nice to catch up with some friends. well thats all i feel like writing right now im gonna go take a nap im still tired. hey lucy my tomatoe plants seem to be doing okay i have a couple flowers on the one! oh and my boyfriends boss gave us a big wooden well that i put in my flower garden, love it! my hanging flower pots arent doing so good though for some reason, even watered them every day or other like u should and they are dying!!!!! okay well im gonna go, hope everyone is well im really behind on blogs , will catch up one day. hugs

im alive!

my new sofa , has 2 recliners, its acually a darker tan color.

my new loveseat! its very high so not hard to get off of and oh so comfey! has 2 recliners so mommy can put her feet up lol

just some mountains

a cool cave we seen coming out of the mountain.

just some pretty pics of the mountains around there

here was are home sweet home for 2 days, it was raining as you can see.

we had to follow this trail on the property to get where we were setting up, your going up a hill.

this is the old store thats falling apart now

old school bus someone turned into a camper

heres a pic of an old outhouse on the property!

Why helloooooooooo...........

i made it back from my trip from west virginia just havent felt like blogging. here are some pics and heres a pic of my 2 new couches! i dont no how to get the pics on here the way they should be so just bare with me lol. okay so the picture of the bus is a old school bus that someone turned into a camper! its just sitting on the property now, i was afraid to go near it , its so old and i might find a dead body or something :P the property belongs to my boyfriends cousins wifes family, its on spruce knob the highest mountain in WV. her great grandmother use to own a store there and it also was a camp ground, theres no electric around there. it takes 30 to 45 mins to get off the mountain each way. so heres a pic of the old store its falling apart and heres just some random pics of where we set up are camp site. it rained pretty much the whole time wich wasnt fun but it was nice to just enjoy nature and it was soooooo quite! i had a good time just sitting around doing nothing while the others rode 4 wheelers. didnt see me a bear and anything big thank god! others saw turkeys and deer. so anyway was so tired when we got back and was glad to be home. i just dont enjoy long car rides it makes me tired and makes me swell like crazy!

i love love my new couches, got them friday. would it be wrong of me to make everyone sit on the floor and me just enjoy them. i just have never had new couches and i dont want the kid or anyone spilling anything or damaging them. i no its gonna happen one day , just not yet i hope! they are microfiber wich i was told by many many that its easy to keep clean. it figures my cat never got on the other couch but once we got these i see her trying to get on and i gotta say NOOOOOOOO. i dont want her clawing at them or getting cat hair, sorry im a bit compulsive and just dont like new stuff to get ruined. go ahead shake your head and tell me to get over it!!!!! lol. so anyway that really about it around here just been doing the same ole same. really gotta catch up on blogs im way behind, so if i havent been by in while i will soon. hugs

off to west virginia

!m feelin real good today, hope that means its a start to a good weekend for me. we are leaving for west virginia at 4 am and i have to admitt im getting excited. just really looking foward to getting away, i no i get out once in awhile for karaoke but thats just not the same lol.

walmart called today and said my glasses or in so im going to get them in a bit, my eye test went good, im not as blind as i thought! my right eye is alot worse than my left though. but oh well, i picked out a modern pair of frames and hope i like them as much as i did that day when i looked at them.

i think today is going so good for me because i called my dad to tell him i love him and that i was leaving for my trip shortley, he goes to bed around 6 so i had to call him early to say bye lol . he told me he loved me and then i talked to my sister that i dont talk to much and we had a heart to heart today and for once finally exspressed how we were feelin about things.
i feel so much better now because iv always wanted a relationship with her but it just wasnt there and i guess with this whole thing going on with my dad peoples feelings change and gets you thinking and we decided to put the past in the past and focus on the future and it feels good!

oh and my new couches came in but i wont be here to get them, they wanted to deliver this weekend. so i will have to wait till next weekend. i guess i can live with that lol!

im gonna try to take some pics on my new camera i got, i heard at nite its really beautiful on the mountain. well im off here, gotta start packing, i always wait till the last minute to do everything "sigh" , will be back sunday hopefully! hope everyone has a great weekend. hugs

Hello,
its a beautiful , HOT day here! the bummbel bee's were trying to run me off my porch this morning. i wait on the porch to see my son off to school on the bus but there was so many bee's they were freaking me out! im a just alittle scared of em! they decided to build a nest somewhere and make home but they gotta go. i called bf and told him youve gotta do something because i cant deal with bee's wizzing by my head lol.

Had a good weekend, really didnt do to much because it was just to darn hot! saterday nite went to a friends house for drinks and i had 4 wine coolers and all it did to me was make tired lol. i guess i cant hang like i use too. use to be able to drink couple beers or something and get drunk but now i just get tired :P dont need to get drunk though to have fun. today was my fathers stress test, i hope it went or is going good. im not sure what time his appt was, my sister is suppose to call me and let me no how things went.

im going to the eye drs tomm at walmart and lets see how blind iv become. i normally wear glasses now to read or drive at nite, but iv been needing them to watch tv so that its not so blurry. i dont like the glasses i have now, dont like the frames. so im excited to pick a new pair that i will be comfortable wearing at any time.

im getting excited about this friday, its D Day, i go camping in west virginia. im still not to kean on the camping part even if its in a camping trailer, just looking forward to getting away. theres 10 of us going i believe and we are leaving 4am friday mornin. so ill be sleeping alot of the way there im sure lol its 6hrs away. well not much more to say, hope everyone is having a good day.
heres a link to a song i recorded. janie got me addicted to this now, so i had to try it out. hugs
http://www.singsnap.com/snap/r/bf11a1195

just a hoehum day

"Sigh" im just in a quite mood right now as it feels my mind is racing a mile a minute.

found out yesterday that my dad isnt doing to good, you cant tell by lookin at him thats for sure and thats whats so scary! my sister dragged him to the drs because he hates drs, gee wonder where i get that from......... she took him to the eye drs last week because he just cant see that good and so he let her take him and it was no good news. hes got bleeding behind his eyes and thats from being diabetic and not taking care of it and ignoring it like everything else. so then went to regular dr ysterday and they checked him over and did ekg and he was told that hes had a heart attack at some point and has had a stroke and hes got a clogged artery somewheres, high blood pressure, high cholestrol,so next week hes gotta get a stress test done.

im trying not to worry about this and just pray that he gets himself all taken care of and he will be fine but............ you cant make someone take care of them selves who dont want to. hes so stubbern and set in his ways, always thinks that it will just go away, you'll get over it etc etc. to this day he still doesnt understand my disease and thinks it will just poof go away and tells me i just need to exercise, move around. well daddy your exercising and lifting weights and how great of shape you think your in your not, your falling apart! so im not suppose to let him no i no anything , he doesnt want anyone to no but of course my sis told me, thank god! i mean his kids should no whats going on hes are only father.

when i talked to him ysterday on the phone and it was a nice conversation he told me he loved couple times and when i got off the phone reality set in that this is some serouis stuff, hes a ticking time bomb and just doesnt get it! i dont want to loose him , we may not have always gotten along but hes always been there for me and a great father and i dont no what id do without him. i think alot of times when bad things happen i just try not to think about it so maybe i dont have to face it, maybe its from being a kid watching my mom slowley die, i dont no but i cant hide from this and neither can he. hes 68 yrs old and needs to be around for along time! sorry this post is a downer but iv just got alot on my mind. hope everyone has a good day! hugs