Its raining today, its so gloomy but im not so thats all that counts lol! we went out for karaoke last nite at this buffet resturant and went because we can take our son, they allow kids to go. it was fun and nice to see some friends! just recently i had a male friend or i shouldnt say hes my friend because we dont talk like that but iv known him for years and he goes to karaoke where i go. he caught me on the computer and was talking to me and told me years ago he had a crush on me......... it was so nice to hear. and was saying how i am still cute etc and i felt bad him saying that because i do have a boyfriend of 6yrs but sure did make this old lady feel good! i havent been hit on for what seems like forever and always feel down about myself and for someone to say sweet things sure brightened my day and spirits! so i was talking to that guy when my boyfriend came hom from work but he didnt care i was talking to him, hes not the jealous type. i said hes flirting with me do you care???? he was like no and i dont think he really believed me but i told him somethings the guy had said and he was like yes he was deffiently flirting but again....... doesnt seem to faze boyfriend. im glad it doesnt bother him but also wish he would show something and at least realize that someone else could be attracted to me lol. but anyway....... this week is going by fast and i hope this weekend is a nice one because i feel like taking a nice long car ride thrue some back ,hilly , farmy, amishy roads lol. i wrote my sister( the one not talking to me) and told her this is my last attempt to find out what i did. she wrote me back and said she isnt ignoring me and is just busy with husband retiring and etc but she will be in touch and loves me, now WTH! how come she can be busy but jump down my throat when i was busy and didnt get back to her????? somethings i will never understand lol! anyway hope everyone is doing good. i dont like this new verizon internet i have, its faster ill give it that but alot of times i cant get on??????? take care, hugs
Thursday, March 26, 2009
Friday, March 20, 2009
Its been awhile since i wrote, just havent been in the mood and plus switched over to verizon internet and so i have to figure things out lol. can anyone tell me how to switch my email contacts over to my new address????? im such a ditz sometimes! this week has been a pretty good one, i was deffiently in a better mood thats for sure except.............. my son is driving me crazy! okay i get that hes 5 but the things hes doing i just cant take! i was in the livingroom the other day and seen some chip crumbs on the floor, okay........ but further inspection he done stuffed a couple handfulls of chips under my couch and they were sticking out! i cant deal with food around the house and being hidden, i think its nasty and i dont want no bugs! then i find cheese wrappers under is his bed, candy wrappers etc. you would think i dont feed my kid the way he is hiding stuff. trust me hes well fed and 10pds over weight to prove it so why is he acting like this, just because i dont say yes to everything he wants? if it was up to him he would probobly eat all day, hes a picker and he wants junk all the time, i cant have that. i dont want him to have a weight problem when he grows up. so we had a talk with him about just taking food and hiding it etc and hopefully he gets it thrue his head because i dont want to keep dealing with this. my neice is suppose to be comeing down to spend the nite tonite( its my sisters daughter the one that STILL ISNT TALKING TO ME) so we'll see if she shows up, she wont call most likley just show up wich i hate! so things are pretty good around here and hope they continue that way. hope everyone has a great weekend. hugs
Posted by *Tracy* at 2:06 PM
Thursday, March 12, 2009
so hows life treating everyone??????? im doing pretty good just so darn tired this week, all i think about doing is sleeping! im miserable and down as usual too dont no if its that time of month again or what, i never no these days. i think my sister not talking to me is getting to me. accually i dont think it is i no it is!! i just dont get why shes acting this way, life is just way too short to be so petty. when we do finally talk its going to be all awkward and im not going to no what to say so shes just making it worse. BUT I REPEAT im not going to call her anymore or make anymore attempts because like i said thats what she wants, shes queen bee and wants everyone to bow down to her and im not doing it! but i miss her soooo much, its been 2 weeks now since weve talked :(
watched empire of the sun yesterday i like that movie, have you ever seen it? its a war movie and im not really into those but its about a littles boys life and so i guess they always get me because having a son of my own.
ugh iv gotta call the clothing place i ordered clothes from because its now been 2 weeks and still no clothes , why am i scared to call?????? i hate calling people back regarding bills or anything really. and to think i use to be a phone operator :P now having to call someone other than a friend or family makes me nervous and start to sweat, weird huh lol!
but other than me being a grumpy you no what life really is good right now and i feel very blessed and thankful because it could be worse. when things are going good im always waiting for the shoe to drop. boyfriend hates that about me, he says i complain when things are bad but then i complain when things are good, that im never happy. i dont no why that is............. i just always think good = bad at some point so i try not to get too excited over things. im weird what can i say. just tell me to shut up and enjoy life!lol hope everyone is having a good day, almost the weeekend. hugs
Posted by *Tracy* at 1:20 PM
Saturday, March 7, 2009
Posted by *Tracy* at 1:08 PM
Wednesday, March 4, 2009
SO FORGOT TO POST THAT THE MOVIE CHANGELING WAS GREAT! I LOVED IT, BUT SOOOO SAD. SOOOOO HMMMM WHAT DID I WRITE ABOUT LAST, I ALWAYS FORGET LOL.
MY SISTER IS JUST ANNOYING THE HELL OUT OF ME, SHES GOING TO BE 45 BUT SHE ISNT ACTING IT! SHES ALL MAD AT ME BECAUSE I HAVENT TALKED TO HER IN LIKE A WEEK N HALF! GET OVER IT! SHES ALWAYS BUSY AND IM FINE WITH THAT AND IM NEVER BUSY SO I TALK TO HER WHEN I TALK TO HER. WE DO NORMALLY TALK EVERYDAY OR EVERYCOUPLE DAYS BUT SHE SAID SHE WOULD CALL ME BECAUSE IM ALWAYS CALLING HER , SO THATS FINE. WELL IV BEEN BUSY LATLEY WITH FUNERAL AND GOT THE NEW CAR SO BEEN GETTING OUT MORE . SO ANYWAY I CALL HER TODAY AND SHE WASNT HOME SO LEFT HER A MESSAGE . I GET ON THE COMPUTER AND READ EMAILS AND THERES ONE FROM HER AND SHES ASKING ME WHAT MY PROBLEM IS AND NOT IN A NICE WAY AND SAYING I NEED TO GROW UP AND QUIT BEING PISSY ETC ETC. WHAT THE HELL DID I DO??????? SHES GOT SOME SEROUIS ISSUES. AND TOO TOP IT OFF WHEN SHES MAD AT ME ITS SHES ALWAYS GOTTA THROW THIS IN MY FACE" AFTER ALL IV DONE FOR YOU" WHY DO ANYTHING FOR ME IF IM GOING TO BE CONSTANTLY REMINDED ABOUT IT!!!! UGH SHE JUST RUINED MY DAY BIG TIME BECAUSE I DIDNT DO ANYTHING TO HER.
MY SON DIDNT HAVE SCHOOL TODAY SO HES HOME DRIVING ME CRAZY, NA NOT REALLY HES ACCUALLY NOT GIVING ME ANY PROBLEMS FOR A CHANGE.
I GO SEE MY SPECALIST TOMM AND GOOD THING BECAUSE FOR 2 DAYS WICH I DIDNT REALIZE MY REG DRS OFFICE HAS BEEN TRYING TO REACH ME. MY PRIMARY DR WANTED TO NO WHEN I WAS GOING TO SEE THE OTHER DR BECAUSE MY LIVER AND MUSCLE TEST CAME BACK HIGH. MY REG DR GETS MY RESULTS TOO WHEN I GET TEST DONE. I TOLD THEM I WILL BE SEEING THE DR TOMM AND SAID I DIDNT NO ANYTHING ABOUT THE TEST BECAUSE I GOT THEM DONE 3 WEEKS AGO AND THEY HAVENT CALLED ME TO TELL ME ANYTHING. I GUESS THEY FIGURED THEY WOULD WAIT BECAUSE I WOULD BE SEEING HIM SOOON. WHO NO'S, JUST WEIRD MY REG DR WOULD CALL, HE NEVER DOES. UGH IM SOOOOO IRRITATED RIGHT NOW, ITS AMAZING HOW SOME PEOPLE CAN JUST REALLY RUIN YOUR DAY REAL FAST. HOPE EVERYONE IS HAVING A GOOD DAY. HUGS
Posted by *Tracy* at 1:42 PM
Monday, March 2, 2009
Its snowing!!!!!!! my son didnt have school today so now hes home and bugging me to go outside and build a snowman! yea right! mamma isnt leaving her nice warm house, hes going to have to wait till daddy gets home! so had a pretty nice weekend, we went out for karaoke on saterday at this place thats like a vfw. they only have karaoke once a month so i try to go and the people are pretty friendly and except us even though we arent members. gots lots of compliments on my singing too wich is always nice lol. yesterday( sunday) we went to the grocery store wich was a big mistake because everyone and their momma was there freaking out because of the snow. we were just there to do are regular grocery shopping wich we only go like every 3 weeks sometimes longer, we had nothing in this house!!!!! i dont no why we wait so long, but yesterday was deffiently not the day to go i see now.
dont have much planned this week just have to see my specialist on thurday and get my blood test results back and other results and see what he has to say yada yada..........
we got a car last week, not a new one but new to us and boyfriend is oh so happy. now he doesnt really have to drive the other car except to work, wich is on its last leg. he cant wait till july and hes going to use it in the demolition derby lol. but anyway got another car and its suppose to really be mine because im stuck at home all the time, but i havent gotten to drive it yet! :( not that i really want to though, i dont drive much and when i do it makes me nervous and anxouis . but i would like the option to drive if i wanted to is all but boyfriend cant stand not being the driver.
my sinuses are killing me today for some reason, my nose keeps burning i wish it would stopppppp! i think for the rest of the day im just going to do some laundry, change the bed sheets and get a shower and then watch a movie. we rented this movie called changeling, anyone seen it?? its based back in the 1920's i think and about a woman whos son disapears or something and they find him like years later but come to find out its not really her son. i dont no i might have that all screwed up but i think thats what the box said lol. anyway so going to watch that and thats about it. hope everyone has a great day! hugs
Posted by *Tracy* at 11:33 AM