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Sunday, November 16, 2008

i think im alive , just barley!

These last couple days have been horrible for me! iv just been soooo sick or worrying that im going to be sick cause of this darn gallbladder. i know i know you all are saying just get the darn thing taken out but its just not that simple. if i go to the hospital like i wanted to so bad friday they would have just kept me there forever and gave me pain meds im sure and sent me home, thats not going to help me!!!!!! so friday was the worst day, i think i accually scared my boyfriend the way i was grunting and moining and groining and slightly screaming, i was in so much pain i would have rather been giving birth. i was vomiting so much that in 2 days iv lost 15 pds. im happy about the weight loss :) sick aint i! but i just cant deal with this pain. the pain i get starts in my stomache then its all in my chest my ribs, my back, all over, feels like im having a heartache plus vomiting makes it worse and last for hours on and off and by time its over im just so tired and spent i go to sleep! today im good so far except for my body all over is killing me but that should go away later hopefully. i just hope i can make it thrue the day without getting sick, i ate a little something but just so scared. even drinking some water can get it started and thats pretty bad. pray for me i can have a good day without pain pleassssse! bf is working on the car or is suppose to be, thinks problem with the car is fuel pump so hopefully thats all it is, see thats a problem to with car acting up if im serouisly really sick , cant even drive to hospital cause car wont make it that far right now, id have to call an ambulance and i dont want that lol. so thats it right now......... hopefully if bf gets car fixed we go to walmart later so i can just get out of the house. its been raining and so windy and cold around here its depressing! i think alot of people are down and blue this time of year, i know i sure am. i shouldnt be i have my family wich is my bf and son but i guess it just hurts that i cant spend it with my father and 3 brothers and 2 sisters cause we just dont get along and not close. its very sad really! sorry for this entry to be a downer but that just a place where im at right now. hope everyone is having a good weekend. hugs

7 comments:

friedmsw said...

Tracey, if you keep putting it off it is only going to get worse. You can not continue being this sick! Your gall bladder could rupture and then you would have a whole new set of issues. I realize that you are probably scare with your insurance situation. Yet, this is becoming much more serious. Look at the 'ifs". If you do go to the emergency room and are admitted, if you get a big bill for the hospital stay-pay the barest minimum on the bill. As long as you pay something in good faith, there is NOTHING, NO LEGAL ACTION that can be taken against you. I am speaking as a hospital social worker when I say this. You have got to be seen by a doctor!! If you don't have a way to the emergency room, call an ambulance. Same thing applies with the ambulance bill-pay the minimum in good faith. I am afraid that if you do not do something that one day your bf or your child is going to wake up and find you dead. Sorry to be so harsh, but if it takes being harsh then I will be.

Jamie said...

Hope your feeling better today. I agree that you should have it removed. I had a bad gall bladder at one time, but nothing like you are describing, and my doctor took mine out quickly.

Take care of yourself.

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Janie said...

Will be keeping you in my prayers. Hugs, Janie

Missie said...

I had my gall bladder removed. It's not that big of a deal. I went to the hospital in pain, they did an ultrasound, I surgery the next day.

Hope you feel better.

MISSY said...

That sounds so miserable! I'm sorry that you are so sick, get to a doctor as soon as you can. That can't be healthy.

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Lucy said...

Oh Tracy I am so sorry you are sick. You made my birthday so special. If you know that is a gall bladder attack, just go and the surgery is much simpler than it used to be. My son in law was home 3 days after his surgery. If it is not gall bladder you need to find out what it is. Now my girl. Hugs to you