just feel so.....

Well today was my birthday and it was a awful one at that. i wish i had happy things to write here latley but its just not there. spent my whole day sick in bed with chills, slight fever, body pain etc etc and gallbladder attack yet again. i only was able to eat a slice of bread and a bannana today just so i could take my meds. this just really sucks anymore and im so tired of never feeling good. iv been really depressed latley and dont no if its cause im suppose to get my time of the month but never do anymore for somereason. iv been flipping out on everyone around me and okay one minute and then crying the next! im on the new meds my dr prescibed for my muscles but bf wants me off them. iv only been on them for 5 days but 2 times already have felt like i was going to black out/passout and have had more than usual body pain. bf thinks its from new meds but i dont no. i think hes just worried cause hes a truck driver and all over the place driving and wont be able to get to me if something happend. on a happier note im going to accually try to make some homemade stuff this year for thanksgiving. i live with a picky bf and son and sometimes thats good cause then i dont have to be the greatest cook lol. but going to make real stuffing this year for me instead of box kind lol. going to try to make an apple pie wich i made one 2 years ago and it wasnt bad. cant make my own crust though, gonna use frigerated kind, but will use real apples and stuff. gonna make bananna pudding wich everyone loves here! our dinner just consist of cause of picky eaters is turkey, gravy , and im going to try to make that from scratch too, can greenbeans they wont eat anything else :P, mash potatoes, rolls and cousin is making me her coleslaw, i love it and cant seem to make hers. so thats about it, miss going to others homes cause then id get all the foods i love instead of just these few but oh well, i dont need it really anyway, dont need to get any fatter!!! lol. hopefully i can even eat my darn thanksgiving dinner! probobly wont write anything else anytime soon so hope everyone has a wonderful thanksgiving and enjoy the time with your family. ((((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))