yay the weekends here! so my sister calls today again, the one im not talking to. bf answers the phone and they are talking i can hear everything and my sis says that shes calling because my dad wants us girls to come to his house for thanksgiving. she says to bf is she still not talking to me? he says i guess so and she says well oh well she isnt hurting me she'll be hurting her father. see this is why i dont talk to her, shes mad at me cause im not ready to talk yet shes the one that screwed us over. the right thing to say would have been , well im sorry shes still mad at me and hopefully we will get past this and be able to talk again, not oh well she isnt hurting me, its like a slap in the face to me! so still not talking to her and not going to my fathers for thanksgiving to spend it with her either! im not a fake person and cant fake being happy and it wouldnt be right and would be arkward if i spend the holiday with her, why make us both miserable. i told my other sister whom im close to what my other sis had said and she said she dont no what shes talking about cause she just talked to me dad the day before and he didnt want to get together and was just going to eat out so who the heck no's whats going on. right now im having thanksgiving at my house and my sister im close with is bringing her family and my dad is more than welcome to come enough said! do you all think im being a baby and should just get over it and try to have thanksgiving with my sis im not talking too? sometimes i think im too harsh and hold a grudge to long but this just isnt the first time shes screwed me over and its always been major things and i just dont have her oh well get over it attitude, i care about things and try to be honest and like i said i not fake. she has so many lies in her marriage etc and in her life. im tired of people trying to screw me over so im not letting it happen again. i no im rambling but gotta get this out, its like her trying to sell us a car that she says is fine and then talk to her husband , bf did just other day, they sold the car and had to cause it was costing them too much money to fix this and that all the time. why would you try to sell it to me noing we are a one income family and work is slow, already have a crappy car etc etc. just proves my point about her! okay im gonna quit talking about her cause she gets my blood boiling! good news is that bf thinks he fixed car for now, hes pretty good with cars thank god. so if the car can last a little while longer id be so happy! hes going to look at cars tomm at buy here pay here and see if we can do anything, i truly hope so. i really hate that im not able to bring any money in and all the burden is on my bf, it truly upsets me and makes me feel like a looser. he no's the circumstances and says its fine but sometimes in little ways not purposly makes me feel guily and bad that i cant help out finacially or maybe its just my guilt, and maybe cause its getting to be around the holiday time i dont no.
heres a pic of my kitty shes 2 1/2 i think, got her in june from a family member. she truly brings me happiness, shes a flighty cat and not trusting but seeing how shes gotten use to me and likes me more than anyone in this house means alot. when ever im on this computer thats right wheres shes gotta be, right in front of my keyboard so its hard to type go figure lol. but dont have the heart to push her away. hope everyone has a good weekend. hugs
7 comments:
Ah, Tracy, you are so much like me in the way we think, I should add when I was younger. You have to find it in your heart as to if you should just say, "Oh well, I am better than she is and more forgiving" or as long as it is not going to make you sick stressing about it, or if you cn invite her and say, I did it and now the ball is in her court. Lucy
I love the picture of your cat! As far as the issue with your sister is concerned, all I can say is-take it from personal experience-that if you do not make some type of amends and something happens to one of you the other one will have a hard time coping.
It sounds like your sister is driving you crazy and you have a good reason to feel the way you do. If she has used you before and you have let her do it to you.. then she thinks that you will give in this time. We can not change other people. My Granny use to say that a leopard never changes their spots. I just imagaine that your sister is going to be the way she is for a long time. When we have someone like that in our life we have to try to not worry about them. They are making you unhappy and she knows this also. Sometimes the only thing you can do is what you are doing... letting things cool off. I understand you not wanting to talk to her. It is hard to trust someone that always hurts us or uses us. You are not alone. You can not change her... but you can change yourself, right? Try to close the door on the aggravation that you are feeling right now. I know.. it is hard but it is possible. Will be keeping you in my prayers.. because God can do anything!! Your cat looks a lot like my yongest one. The free cat that ended up costing almost $150!!! Nutered and sick. lol Hope you have a blessed day and sounds like you have a great bf.. just believe what he tells you. If money is short he can't help but feel anxious. Love, hugs, and prayers, Janie
Just stopping by to say hi since getting back.
I'm sorry things are not good with your sister....family issues are just the worst. I will keep the situation in my prayer and hopefully you both will find a way to work through it.
Love & Pooh Hugs,
Linda
Hope you have reached a decision on your sisters invite or no invite. Pretty cat. Lucy
Just noticed your new picture. I like it.
Love your new pic, that is a great one and it looks like kitty is reading my blog! LOL
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