not always a happy camper

Iv come to the conclusion that my blog has many ups and downs, somedays im happy some im miserable, wish i could always be happy but i dont see that happening!

Got alot done today, bf was done work early so we to dmv and got tags for the truck, plus my handicapped sticker. had burger king for lunch it was okay but sometimes i dont no why i eat that junk it just makes me wanna yack!

so by this point i needed a nap, im tired and hurting, it was a rainey day.......... so came home and layed down for an hr and then my son was done school so had to get him off the bus. drs office called today with my blood work results ck( muscle levels) was 3100 it hasnt changed in 2 months so at my appt on tuesday we will discuss what to do. im on the highest dose of imuran and so i guess we will have to go to highest does of methotrexate, im on 15 mil right now. coming down the predisone just isnt working out, i started at 60 mil two yrs ago and im only down to 20 mil right now i should be lower but every time we try to go lower my ck starts increasing and i start getting bad again. but enough talk of this its just depressing.......

my morning was truley just full of drama and had my adrenaline going and so coming down off the excitement i felt soooo crappy. had it out with my sis this morning i wanted to talk about things and try to fix or relationship but instead she wrote me a nasty note on fb so i wrote one back and pretty much said i wash myself of you. she told me she had a good life and had everything she wanted and that ment that she didnt need me in it. this fight here started because i called her a b$tch because i found out she took me off her friends list on fb and i couldnt understand why, iv never done anything to her so i was hurt. so anyway someone told her i called her that, like its the worst thing someones ever called her. iv been called that so much in my life it dont bother me because you no what some days i can be one! anyway so i told her yea i called u that and tried to explain why but no she dont want nuthin to do with me yet........... i come to find out that she talks about me all the time. she goes around telling people that i use her daughter, the one that comes to see me, that she drives me all over the place and etc . so i confronted her daughter and she said that her mom does say that about me and basically my sis dont want her talking to me anymore, because me and my sis have no relationship they dont want me and her daughter to have one. they( they is my sis and her husband that my sis chose over me) were accusing her of being on my side and not being loyal lol. such drama over stupid stuff! so had heart to heart with my niece and she was upset and wants to be in my life and doesnt understand why her mother is being this way, i told her mom to grow up and realize she lost a sister . i blocked my sis on fb so she cant write me anymore nasty notes. i hope me and niece can move on and that my sister one day will wake up ! i wish her well, after all i do still love her but sometimes u gotta let go. i no some of this doesnt make sense and theres alot iv left out but really talking about it just is painful and when i truley never did anything wrong to her . oh well gotta move on........

on a happier note im off for the beach at 8:30 am tomm and hope to have a good day. have a good weekend.